More Juggling . . .

Ok, since the last post, D. is out of the picture - he has never initiated contact and I'm not about to pursue at this point in time. Money is very tight - lots of beans and rice, pasta and beans, but even that's looking up. I should be getting another interview with different retail giant for Sales Manager positions! The district manager kept repeating, halfway through the interview, I need to get you here. Yea! Almost twice what I make now - I'll be able to pay my bills AND eat! More culinary greats coming soon, hopefully!

Gl did take me out last week, to dinner and then karaoke. T was DJing, and thought he had missed his window of opportunity. I repeated that I'm not going one on one with anyone anytime soon - too much crap in the past, not jumping in only to get hurt again. I had a great time with Gl, though. Conversation was really good, and I had a really good time. He sang the last song of the night, Paint me a Birmingham. Such a danceable song, but since he was singing, I grabbed R, another friend, to dance. Didn't mean to put myself on his radar, but sonehow I did (not a bad thing).

Gl took me home - perfect gentleman - in the door alone by midnite. Good thing, since I had to be at work at 6am! But, there was a problem with G and B - his ex-roommate called the cops and pressed bogus charges, so G picked me up and we went to go get him out. The bail bondsman was cool - I'd never met one before. Back home - finally - a little after 2. Only 3 possible hours for sleep- not a good idea.

So, knowing that J had had a hard day - his grandfather passed that morning (he called when I was out with Gl from outside my apartment) I wanted to touch base with him. I ended going around the corner and picking him up (problems with his bike). Utterly exhausted, when we got back to my place, I was like, we are going upstairs and laying in bed. Silly of me to sleep, but I knew that laying down and resting would be good. So, wrapped up in arms, J and I talked about the day - his and mine - until 5:30, when I took him back to M&M's and headed to work.

Out that night again - all-nighter and I still go out to the tavern to meet up with G! Talked with T a lot that night. Didn't get home till midnite! Then closed at work thrusday night - our district manager was in that day, so I was dressed up. To the tavern after work. Closed it again. Ended up singing (hadn't planned on singing at all) 'Cheater Cheater' directed at G's soon-to-be-ex, because he sang 'I hate you (but I still love you)', but he left right before I sang. :>(( But, it was fun anyway - G and T loved it!

J came over after I got home. He was exhausted. Fell asleep immediately in me arms, holding me tightly. Work on friday 6am again. Rearranged the whole newborn department! In talking with J that thursday night, tho, I told him that I wanted to go out and have fun that friday night, with him. And that another friend wanted us to come over and chill with a fire pit in the early evening. J pretty much blew me off again - the last time he did was the day his grandfather went into the hospital. J ended up going to the viewing, said he was leaving there shortly, and this was at 8p. Well, bored and disappointed, I headed out to the tavern to hang with G.

When I got home at midnite, I stayed up for a bit - another drink, watching stuff I had DVR'd. I texted J that I was disappointed . . . again. Still haven't heard from him.

So, saturday night - closed at work. Home to change and then out to the tavern, hoping that J might be there. He wasn't, but his friend C was. C asked me how J was, and I replied - don't know. Haven't heard from him. He blew me off again. Ball's in his court. And yes, I'm hoping that C ran into him later last night. But still no word from him.

R was there, tho. He came up and chitchated for a bit. He'd been bar hopping, and wanted to continue after the Tavern closed. Sounded like a good idea to me - and I was just looking at R as guy-friend/ drinking buddy. So, we headed to my football haunt and had a couple of drinks. He kissed me - hard. And talked. About Gl and T. And J. I was honest with him and said I won't sleep with Gl or T, but that I am with J. So, we ended up back at his place - and had a pretty good roll in the hay. Don't know if it'll go any further. R's not on my radar to pursue, but definately as a safe buddy and possible drinking partner, who might have some benefits, too.

When I got home - 2ish - I texted G to let her know that I landed at home safe - it's what we do. And - though I'd been very good at not texting J all day since he had never responded to my Friday night text - I texted J, too. I figure I can use the excuse of drunk texting. All I said was 'home safe' and then I sent another one a few minutes later - 'nite'. At this point on sunday morning, I still haven't heard from him.

Extended hours at work tonight, so I'm there till after 10. And then monday, hopefully my phone with ring to schedule interviews with 2 store managers. I so hope that this works out. I'm desparate to earn more money - closer to what I'm truly worth! To be able to go to the grocery store and not count dollars, and to go out and enjoy a few.

Still want J to text or call. And I plan on continuing to get to know Gl and T. But. . . again, more later. (My social life is finally gettin exciting!)

in anycase . . .

slainte . . .

Mulu :>)